The Confident One

For the Lord will be your confidence, And will keep your foot from being caught.

-Proverbs 3:26

How often I forget. How often I think that confidence means that I have to be strong one, the unyielding one, full of energy and ideas, and basically perfect. I couldn’t be more wrong! That is not only exhausting and burn-out provoking, it is misplaced. We should have confidence, no doubt. But it’s WHO we place our confidence in that makes all the difference.

This passage was like a cool stream of water to my heart this morning when I read it. Meditating on this scripture, I realize that it is Jesus who IS my confidence. He is the Source in whom I can fully trust. He is the Confident One, and He will never fail me.

What a relief that I don’t need to have all the answers in this life! I don’t have to rely on my own wisdom, talents, skills or strengths alone to carry me. That is what the world teaches us, that it’s all about our own initiative and our own drive. Yet, the Lord whispers to me that it is HE alone that will be may all in all. I can rest in Him. I can hide myself in Him. I can be confident in Him.

May this give you comfort today, my weary sisters. He is our peace, our joy, and our confidence. He is altogether trustworthy and never fails. May we allow ALL our hope to rest in Jesus today.

Blessings,

Tina

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I am running a FREE promotion on my recently released e-book for the next 5 days! So please feel free to download it and be encouraged in your journey. Would you consider sharing this link on your FB page, blog or other social media? And also, please leave a comment or review of my book either here or on my amazon page. Thank you so much!

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My Recently Released E-Book Has A Fresh Look!

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My recently released e-book has a new cover and revised formatting. It looks so much more professional thanks to my friend Cherie Hill of WriteSource Publishing. I would love for you to download a copy and pray that you will be encouraged along the journey of homeschooling. And please share with other moms and homeschool groups, media pages, etc. I would so appreciate it!

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I Blew It…But I Still Love Me

Confession time…

I blew my top yesterday. Yes. Something flipped inside of me. A trigger set me off. I yelled at my oldest, screamed at him in fact, enraged at his behavior and attitude. I knew somewhere within, that “still, small voice” sending warning signals to me to pull away and go breath, etc, but did I listen? Not hardly.

I can so relate to Paul when he expressed the struggle between the spirit and the flesh in the book of Romans. He said, “I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway” (7:18-19). I didn’t really want to yell and rage, but I did.

Being a part of a recovery group has opened my eyes to so many things. One of them being the first step to recovery, and that is admitting that we are powerless over our addictions and compulsive behaviors. Is that an excuse? Is that a cop out? I used to think so. I fought so hard against this idea for a couple of years. I am just recently learning that it’s true. It’s actually at this point of humility that God’s mercy, grace and power really begin to shine. Only by admitting that I have a compulsive tendency to yell when I am angry can I truly begin to experience some measure of freedom from it.

I won’t bother relaying to you what precipitated the anger. Do you know why? Because it doesn’t matter. What matters is my reaction to the circumstance regardless of what the circumstance may be. This is what I teach my children, that they are only responsible for how they react, not for the choices of others. And again thanks to recovery, I am understanding the reasons behind why I react the way I do at times, the deeper reasons. And that is healing and freeing as well.

But the main reason I wanted to share this is to say that I still love me. In spite of my flaws, my weaknesses, my failures, my mishaps, I still love me. Yes, it may sound strange and even arrogant, but I spent so many years beating “me” up over all my imperfections. I was carrying so much shame because I couldn’t get my act together and be the perfect mother and wife that I thought I was supposed to be. I just knew the Lord must have had a sizable amount of disappointment in me, even though I knew He still loved me. I actually realize now that I thought He merely tolerated me.

This view has changed. And I couldn’t be more thankful. I now believe and am learning to understand that my Father loves me far more than I could fathom or imagine. He doesn’t just tolerate me, and He understand me when I fall, when I fail, when I blow it. Yet, it doesn’t change His love at all. I often sense Him drawing even closer to me in those moments. Isn’t that something? Because He loves me, then I can love me even in my brokenness and my mess ups. Even in my pride and selfishness. He is there, always there, beckoning me with His kindness and mercy and grace.

So, again I say I blew it. I did make amends with my son. I told him I was sorry for blowing up and yelling at him. And I made no excuses for that. Yet, at the end of the day, I still love me, because I am confident that my Heavenly Daddy still loves me. And if He loves me and created me fearfully and wonderfully, then I know He wants me to love and forgive myself as He does.

 

The Launch of A Blog Journey!

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Hello fellow homeschooling mothers,

Well, it looks like I am going to try this blogging thing again after many, many years. In the early years of homeschooling, those years when I thought I had it all together and knew it all and could “do this thing,” I used to blog a little about our journey. But somewhere along the way, life began to get very busy! Imagine that! And I seemed to have lost track of writing and blogging my experiences.

Yet, lately, after 16 plus years of being a stay-at-home mom (yikes!), I feel the need for an outlet, and I feel a strong desire to encourage other women at various walks in this journey as well. So, this is my desire. To be a place of rest for the weary mother. To be a safe place of grace, encouragement, and transparency.

I enjoy writing devotions, and so this will be a place where I will post them for you. Come along with me on this crazy, exhilarating, exhausting, exasperating journey called home schooling. This site won’t be another “how-to” site necessarily, although I certainly plan to share my thoughts along the way. Alright, mostly my mistakes. Learn from my mistakes.

Blessings and talk to you soon,

Tina